"I"m not that girl..."

I am not what you would call a domestic type. In fact, for the most part, I am a freakin' slob! I don't mean to be- I will clean something up and then before I know it, a pile of junk has appeared! It's like I'm Pig Pen- the mess just seems to follow me about!

The funny part is, when I was working, I was the complete opposite! I was Type-A, psycho neat! When I worked at a desk, it was organized, neat, and useful and when I was a nanny, my gals closet and drawers looked like the showroom at the Gap! I hated to work in any sort of chaos, and yet, I am sometimes content to live in it!


Now that PJ is here and being his mama is my job (Best.Job. EVER!), I am trying to find a balance between my old work self and my new home-but-at-work self. That can be hard to do when you are just getting your wobbly new-mama legs adept at holding you up, a la Bambi! There are days that I feel like managing to feed my hungry little man every hour was as big an accomplishment as I could manage that day- forget trying to clean the bathroom or load the dishwasher! The mama part of me feel like that's just fine; my old, Type-A work self is horrified; my slob-at-home self just shrugs it off. I seem to have developed some sort of mild schizophrenia.

I want so badly to be one of those put together women who have a neat, organized, attractive living space, nicely dressed children, and manage to put a little tinted moisturizer and lip gloss on every day. I want to be one of those women who make it all seem so effortless- but not in a way that's obnoxious, but in a way that makes me enviable andlovable!

That said, I am a long way from being that woman, enviable orobnoxious! So, I will just have to work on one thing at a time. Right now, my son is sweet, healthy, growing, nicely dressed, and has a nursery to die for! ;-)

For now, that will do nicely!

1 comment

Shelly said...

i know exactly how you feel! sitting on the couch with newborn amelie i had my hands full just making sure she lived through the day =) it gets so much easier, i promise! you are doing a fantastic job and sweet pj is gorgeous--don't worry about the bathroom--i still haven't cleaned mine (my mom does it when she comes to visit =) hahaha